My Life as a Shy Guy - Episode 12

EPISODE 12 

The following week, I made sure that I woke up very early in order to get to school on time. I knew I had a lot to cover. Sharon gave me her notebooks for me to go through all what was taught in class the previous week. I didn’t go home immediately after lectures. I had to cover what was taught the previous week before going home. I located an empty class where I could sit alone and go through all what was thought the previous week. I busied myself immediately. After 10 minutes of reading, I heard someone calling my name. my heart missed a beat when I realized it was a familiar voice. I prayed silently that it shouldn’t be who I was thinking. I slowly raised my head to see Sylvia standing at the door. my eyes widen in shock. How did she find me here? What is she even doing here? I thought Mustack told me that he didn’t say anything to her. So he lied to me. What will I do now? How will I get out of this. What will she do or say this time? I’m finished. She started walking towards me. Her every step increased my heartbeat. I thought of jumping out through the window but decided against it, knowing fully well that I might injure myself if I do that. Since I had no other idea of what to do, I only fixed my gaze on the floor and awaited what would befall me. She got to me and stood beside me. 

“Hi Christian” she said I slowly raised my head to see if she was actually the one standing beside me or not, because I was expecting her to start barking immediately she get to me. “Can I sit?” she asked, pointing to the available space beside me. I didn’t respond. I just kept staring blankly into air. What is she trying to do this time? I thought. “Can I sit?” She repeated when I didn’t respond. I nodded and she immediately sat beside me. She fixed her gaze on the book I was holding without saying a word. I was uncomfortable having her by my side. After a while of deafening silence, she finally spoke. “Christian I actually…” she paused “I don’t even know how to say this right now” she continued “I don’t have any excuse for my action the other day. I really don’t know what came over me. I left home very angry that day, because someone offended me. I was so angry to the extent that I was having headache. I just had to unleash the anger in me before it chokes me. That was why I got mad at you when you only try to pay my fare. I’m really sorry. I just hope you can forgive me. I have always wanted to apologize all this while but was scared you might get mad at me. I’m very sorry. Please forgive me” she pleaded. I didn’t respond. I just kept staring into air. 

The fact that Sylvia, who I thought was actually coming to descend on me, was actually apologizing, made me surprised. She placed her hand on my shoulder and stared into my eyes. I couldn’t stare back at her. I fixed my gaze on the floor. “Christian please forgive me. I’m really sorry” she said “I have forgiven you” I managed to say. I had to say it, for her to stop boring hole on my body. her closeness was making me very uncomfortable. I was not even angry with her in the first place. “I know that didn’t come from your heart” she said “I have forgiven you. I was not even angry with you.” I said “I don’t believe you. Okay if you have really forgiven me like you said, let me invite you to my place for dinner tonight. If you accept, I will know that you have really forgiven me” she said ‘Your place’ I mumbled to myself. She wants to put me in a tight position now. Why can’t she just believe that I have forgiven her. Now, she’s inviting me for dinner. I had never been comfortable having a lady in my room. Going to a lady’s house might be disastrous. How will I politely turn down her request? That’s one of my problem. I don’t know how to politely turn down a lady’s request. I always agree to all their request, no matter what it cost me. “Do you accept my invitation? She asked “okay” I nodded “thanks very much I’m really grateful.” she said “okay” I responded “I can see you were busy before I came. Let me leave you, so that you can continue with what you are doing” She said “okay” I responded  as she stood up, carried her bag and left. 

I couldn’t continue with what I was reading. I parked my books and left the class. I went straight home to prepare myself for the dinner in order not to embarrass myself in her house.